One of the most challenging and scariest decision I've ever made that helped shaped me into the person I am today!

Did you ever struggle with making a decision that you knew would be hard and scary as hell but so worth it in the end? Like you knew, once you decided, it meant enduring the pain, the uncomfortable and at times scary scenes that came along with it but then shaped you into the person you’ve been looking for?

Well today I’m going to share with you one of the scariest decisions I had ever made that helped shaped me into the person I am today!

When I hit 30 years old, I decided to wean off my anti-depressants. I’ve been thinking of weaning off for quite some time now and I finally summed up the courage to do so! I’ve been eating clean and exercising regularly for many months and gradually felt better and better. I knew if I continued to take care of myself I could potentially wean off my anti-depressants that I’ve been taking now for 6 years.

The day I decided to wean off my medication was as clear as day! I went to see my Dr and told her I felt ready to wean off my anti-depressants. Fortunately she was very supportive but did warn me to wean off very slowly as I could be experiencing major withdraws. So I took her advice to heart and weaned off the medication slowly! It took a few months to get to the lowest dose then what I did was, each week, I would literally open the capsule and take out 2 grains and the following week I would take 2 extra grains out and the following week 2 extra grains till there wasn’t anymore in the capsule. I gotta say, I’m so happy I thought of doing it that way because for the life of me, it was the most scariest times I’ve experienced in my life! The withdraws were so scary to a point I often wanted to throw in the towel and just say fuck it I’ll just take the anti-depressants for the rest of my life! Luckily I had an amazing friend who believed in me when at times I didn’t believe I could do it! Finally, it took a whole year before I was completely off my anti-depressants and let me tell you it felt so good! It’s honestly one of my biggest accomplishments!

I just hated going through life numb! I knew I was full of life and being on these anti-depressants was sucking the life out of me! Because not only did it numb out the fear and anxiety when I was on the medication but it was also numbing out the joys and happiness in my life and I knew I didn’t want to live like this all my life so I had to make some big changes when it came to my health and wellness and over time it gave me the confidence I needed to finally wean off these anti-depressants and be able to foster the storm of the withdraws so I can find joy and happiness in my life again!

I tell you all this because just like my friend was there for me during the toughest of times and reminding me that I can do this and I have all the tools I need to be able to handle this storm and that it has to get worse before it gets better as everything must come to it’s surface before it leaves us! Well just like my friend was there for me, I want to be there for you and tell you, whatever storm you’re going through right now, just know all storm passes and with all storms comes a beautiful sunshine! I know you can do this! You made it this far and I know you can go all the way! Remember discipline weighs ounces but regrets weighs tons, so no matter how tough it gets, push through and you’ll see you’ll get to the other side feeling so damn proud of the person you’ve become!

Now I’m not sitting here writing this blog saying all is good! No, I still feel anxious every now and again and at times go through periods of anxiety but at least now I have the tools I need to cope with them and my fear and anxiety are definitely few and far in between and when I do feel anxious I know it’s my body’s way of communicating with me to take better care of myself mentally and physically.

I’m so happy I decided to make that decision and not choose to stay small and live just a comfortable life because then that would mean I wouldn’t have this incredible story to share with you in hopes to inspire you to not live small and push through the uncomfortable so you can continue to grow into the incredible person you we’re destined to be!

I love you and you’re an incredible person and together we can make a beautiful difference in our lives so we can help the next person on their journey towards health and wellness!

Remember, Keep Progressing On Your Own Journey Towards Health & Wellness!!!

Cheers